The Big Dark Deception.

Something profound occurred to me this morning, at least profound for me. I have been deceiving myself throughout my life. I have all these internal struggles, worrying about everything imaginable, blaming myself for failures at every level, even little ones; I look in a mirror thinking I see myself clearly and not liking what I see, and heaven forbid if anyone else sees me! I avoid mirrors whenever possible, in fact, I hide; at least, I believed I was hiding ... but, is this the BIG lie? Have I been fooling myself throughout the years? Here I am, a 58-year-old woman and I am just now realizing the power of my own mind. The power of 'darkness', the product of my own negative vibes, that wants me to kick myself out the door and into the gutter, and there I lay, feeling sorry for myself for not being better down every avenue of life. Where did all this negative energy come from? I could give you a long list of what I think about that, but I am not going there right now. I will think on this more and come back at another time.

"I am by nature a dealer in words, and words are the most powerful drug known to humanity. " 
                     -Rudyard Kipling

2014

And here it is already 10 days into 2014! Christmas is over and another year begins. I'm trying to hurry and get this note posted before it passes into day 11 and I have 3 minutes! :-) It will be a beautiful year and I will share more tomorrow, but off to bed I go! Yay to a fresh, new year ...